if you could read my mind, you'd be in tears.

missrabbit @ 2009-02-06T17:06:00

2009-02-07T01:08:06Z

OH GOSH! I found the most recent livejournal that i have.
its like my picture profile/blog thing. just go to it! :] hush_hush_alibi
I will most likely be posting more there. so add me!

missrabbit @ 2009-02-06T16:05:00

2009-02-07T00:10:12Z

Wow, hello friends.
Even though I believe no one reads these anymore, I'm still posting.
Maybe the fact that people don't read this anymore is a good thing.

I just went through and read some old posts.
and then went on my first boyfriends page and read some one there.
Actually made me extremely happy that my first boyfriend was great,
and that we were indeed in love. [:
Makes me think maybe there is hope out there for love.

I might be on here more often now, not to sure.
I wish i could remember my other livejournals, like my picture blog. Dang.

Edit: Well i guess i do have the time to type more. I'll update whats up with my life.
I moved out last year in August with my friend Maren. Shes great, and so is living on your own.
But when you have a job that gives you 5-10 hours each week. and 200$ paychecks every two weeks, and rent that is more than you make, it gets hard. I am excited to move back in with my parents this coming up August. I didn't move out cause me and my parents didn't get along or anything. I just knew that Maren needed help moving and living up here, and i wanted to know what it was like to be out of the parents house. Being able to do anything pretty much is amazing. I will miss that when i move back, but being able to actually save up money will be even better! Because if you don't have money you can't really do pretty much anything you wanna do =/ sucks.
While living here though, we've had some super crazy times and some major boring times, but its a learning experience that we all have to go through at one time or another.
I didn't plan on actually writing this much. my bad. But anywaysss... In March for Spring Break me and friends are going up to Seattle to spend a week up there. Even though Seattle happens to be in the same state of which I live in, I'm still so very much fucking excited!!#$*&$! :D
I am not on my computer at the moment. I do have my own but it does not have internet yet T_T so once it does i will start to upload some pictures onto here, deal, yea? [:
Tonight I'm going to hangout with some friends and watch a couple movies. I'm feeling very sick at the moment though. But still will go through with it. Have a good night.

ps. sorry for any spelling or grammar errors.

Edit: I found a picture. this was taken 2days ago when we went up to Yakima to eat at Minors.

I am in the top left hand corner. Sitting by me is my roommate Maren, Then across from me is Cynthia and sitting by her is Tatiana. Same girls that are going to be going up to Seattle. Plus a couple more that aren't in this picture.

missrabbit @ 2006-12-10T09:02:00

2006-12-10T09:02:44Z

i am not happy with my life at the moment.

missrabbit @ 2006-12-05T07:07:00

2006-12-05T07:07:44Z

i just want to be happy
please give me that someone who will be able to that for me
who will be able to make me happy
without breaking my heart

missrabbit @ 2006-10-12T04:49:00

2006-10-12T04:50:30Z

today was an eventfull day :D

missrabbit @ 2006-09-16T02:40:00

2006-09-16T09:37:22Z

i will never be as happy as when i was with you.
and thats a promise i know i will never break.

missrabbit @ 2006-09-13T17:21:00

2006-09-14T00:22:25Z

what i dont understand is that
even tho i took him back after he broke his promises
he cant take me back now
after just becouse i love and care for him.
life isnt fair.

missrabbit @ 2006-08-25T17:26:00

2006-08-26T00:27:19Z

Dear Broc,

i love you so much,
you are my everything,
i dont know what i would do without you.

missrabbit @ 2006-08-11T10:12:00

2006-08-11T17:13:29Z

im really hating myspace.com right now.
and i think im getting another cavity ]:
i wanna eat, but im scared it will hurt more.

im going to a party tonight.
its gonna be soo fun!
i cant wait [:

missrabbit @ 2006-08-04T01:25:00

2006-08-04T08:26:02Z

i called my real dad a dick today.
it felt great!

missrabbit @ 2006-08-03T11:31:00

2006-08-03T18:31:50Z

i cant trust him..

missrabbit @ 2006-07-30T22:47:00

2006-07-31T05:48:01Z

i kinda sorta wished you picked up the phone
becasue now all i can think about are the negatives..

missrabbit @ 2006-07-29T00:11:00

2006-07-29T07:13:12Z

this is when i truely wish i was dead.
when all i do is cause the worst in every event.

edited:
i hate going to bed feeling like the smellist piece of shit on the planet.
but becasue im stubburn and hate giving in.
becasue it makes me feel weak.
its my own fault i go to bed like this.
im going to call billy and have him sing to me.

good night.

missrabbit @ 2006-07-23T21:55:00

2006-07-24T04:56:04Z

i dont wanna be put second anymore.

missrabbit @ 2006-07-23T00:54:00

2006-07-23T07:54:21Z

talking to you is like trying to talk to a dead man.

ps. myspace you fuckin suck.

missrabbit @ 2006-07-20T11:37:00

2006-07-20T18:37:39Z

i srsly dont know what to do with you...

missrabbit @ 2006-07-19T13:51:00

2006-07-19T20:52:17Z

i want no one else but you.
please tell me that its gonna be okay.

missrabbit @ 2006-07-19T06:25:00

2006-07-19T13:27:41Z

what the heck am i doing up at 6:26am.
i have no idea.
i always wake up early when i have no plans.
but when i have plans, like school or sumthin'
i cant seem to get the fuck up.
its weird.

warped tour was last weekend
it was a fuckin blast.
im so glad cynthia came with! :]]

i have this big o fatty cold sore on my lip
and it hurts and its annoying.
i hate it.

missrabbit @ 2006-07-18T00:19:00

2006-07-18T07:20:33Z

i walked all the way to your house
did it mean a thing to you.

missrabbit @ 2006-07-13T23:18:00

2006-07-14T06:19:53Z

im pretty sure i dont wanna go to warped tour anymore.
i mean i would go if she wasent going.
casue then maybe i would actually have fun
then instead of being fuckin yelled at the whole time
becasue im trying to have fun.
so fuck off!

asdfghjkl;

2006-07-13T07:17:12Z

fuck.
i shoped alot this week.
not good.
suppose to be saving money for warped tour.
but im such a shopaholic when i have money
its my anti-depressiant.
but i dont regreat anything that i bought.

i love haning out with Cynthia.
shes quite amazing indeed!

warped tour this week
hopefully it will be fun
thank god Cynthia is coming.

missrabbit @ 2006-07-10T15:19:00

2006-07-10T22:24:35Z

got back from Seattle not to long ago.
i fuckin love seattle so much.
i wish i had my camera with me.
Now i cant decide if i wanna live in Seattle or Cali.
I have tons of friends in Cali
but Seattle just blows my mind on how beautiful it is!

btw, i went up there for court
becasue my dumb ass dad.
he didnt even show up, only his attorny did
fuckin pussy dick.
gawd, i fuckin hate him.
we got a continuence,
so we go back up the August 2nd.
maybe then i will bring my cameraa :]]
i just wish seattle wasnt so far awayyy, blehhh.

i wanna do something today
but then again i just feel like being lazy
and being on the computer all day :]
whatevaaaaaaaa.

and now i leave you with a picture i took
and am very very VERY proud of the outcome :]

eeeks :]

2006-07-10T06:19:10Z

Dave - The overwhelming power of death is there just to inspire. Life is just different ways of not dying. says:
so do you have a b/f?

Cara Carabowditbowdit™ [fuckyou<3] says:
yess.

Dave - The overwhelming power of death is there just to inspire. Life is just different ways of not dying. says:
lucky man he is

Cara Carabowditbowdit™ [fuckyou<3] says:
haha

missrabbit @ 2006-07-09T00:49:00

2006-07-09T07:50:23Z

my friends are being dicks at the moment.

missrabbit @ 2006-07-07T23:28:00

2006-07-08T06:31:54Z

Broc took me out to eat
and then to a moive.
Pirates Of The Caribbean 2.
i thought it was hecka good.
and funny and wicked brilliant :]

we had some bumps afterwards
but hopefully everything is a-ok now!

im way super tired.
sooo happy its the weeked!
going into court Monday
casue my dick of a dad
is sueing my mom becasue i didnt graduate on time
so he had to keep paying child support
what a dumb fuck.
i hate him.

but i love Broc!